Monday, December 27, 2010

Back to School!

To every school kid out there: Its almost time to pack your bags and enter your new class =)

I remember back then when I first started my primary school. It was the old building back then, and I was placed in class 1 Bakawali. I can't remember how it started, but within days I alreadu had my best friend - Nadiya Akmal and Heliani.

I love my primary school.Those were such sweet memories that I hold dearly in my heart. A lot of people ask me, how do I remember details so well. For instance, I could remember where I tool the photo portrait with mummy, kakak and I. Maybe my parents showed us pictures and tell us stories about them over and over again, so that is why the memory lingers.

Then I proceeded to high school. I was not accepted into any boarding school at first, and I got my offer letter slightly after Chinese New Year 2001. Honestly I did not know what to feel back then. I was happy, all my cousins are scorers and they went to boarding school. So I had to score no matter what. It did not bring much pressure though, as daddy has always thought us to be diligent. Well, we are, not as diligent as him, apparently. He reads in shopping malls!!!!!

Finishing high school in 2005, I went to Sunway University College for my A Levels and then here for my MBBS.

My education journey is less hassle as compared to adik or kakak, except back then during my preschool years in the United Kingdom.

Kakak had a series of schools, adik too. But I think adik's history is the most outstanding one. Let me put a layout for you....

Tadika Kemas --> Some chinese kindergarten ---> SK SIS ---> Kelantan International School ---> SK SIS ---> SMK Maahad Al-ahmadi ---> SMK Kubang Bemban ---> Victoria English School, Dubai ---> SMK Kubang Bemban ---> SMS Seri Puteri

See, no one changes school like she does. LoL

Anyway, I've started my new semester TODAY =)

I'm starting with psychiatry. During this posting, again we will be divided into two groups. This time, I did not consider the people who will be distributed into each group, as I have my sister's engagement to consider. So I'm going to Melaka on Sunday, spend another 3 weeks there. Its an advantage as on the final week we are allowed to return to KL on Wednesday so I will be here to pick up adik from school. I guess I wont be doing my hair, spending my money on other stuff. =P

Anyway, I really should start studying. I don't want last posting's mistake to repeat again. So yea. Will be MIA probably when I'm in Melaka. =) And will definitely update about the engagement. I'm super excited!~ Weeeeeeee

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Its Been...

... days since that last mistake.

And God forbid I would ever cross that path ever again.

God forbid I would ever hurt you again.

God forbid you would ever cross my mind again.

I miss being in Dubai at the end of the year. Winter there does not equal to snow, or snowman, or anything in that sense. Just cold breeze, with a hot bowl of maggie made by mummy =) Bliss. Its easy.

I am really grateful I have a place to go where I would lose touch with everyone, unless I come online or blog or anything. Besides that, my phone is not on roaming, and it is super expansive to call or text using my Dubai number, which apparently is no longer in service. Haha.

You see, sometimes its really nice to escape everything, and just run away for awhile. Run from everything, everyone. It could be sick and tiring sometimes to be at square one over and over again.

But I'm done with that. I'm done with running, and its time to face reality. No matter how bitter it is, how hard it gets, I know I would have to do this. So here it goes. I shouldn't be that scared little girl anymore. Right?

And I know somehow I can do this.

Cause I'm not alone, I never will be alone.

I have you.

For you I will.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Made My Day =)

I was out with my uncle, grandma and sister, and we came home for a short refreshment when my uncle decided to go to dreamland, leaving us waiting to go out! LoL.

Anyway, I was browsing through youtube when adik showed me this video. She said she wants to learn how to play this song with her pink guitar =P

That's So You

This video made me laughing for a full 30 minutes, and I watched it again, and laughed, again, for the next 30 minutes!!!

Its soooooooo super cute!! Hahahahahahaahahahaha... See, I can't stop laughing! And yes, it made my day.

You should watch it too. Its cute =) And a good remedy for this gloomy and cold day! *winks*

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Back to December

Life is not a fairy tale. Its not a drama, a sketch that could be replayed over and over again. It doesn't have a fixed script, people don't abide to the script, and the laws been broken all the time.

December is coming to an end. The year has been... eventful.

Heartbreaks, hearts mended. Love lost, love gained. New people, new friends, new environment. New trustee. Friends /acquaintances remain, leave, come, go, reappear and just don't care. Well, spell it with me folks, L.I.F.E

I just love this song by Taylor Swift. I just got hold of her latest album - SPEAK NOW - and as usual it is A.W.E.S.O.M.E! You should really watch this performance by her at the CMA Awards 2010, simple incredible!!! Such talent! I wish I would have the guts to perform like that in front of an audience. I don't think I can even play the piano anymore!!! Haven't touch it in ages!!!

Some people might just see Taylor Swift as a young teenage girl that is pathetic not able to move on by writing songs about every bad relationship she had. But to me, it is a way of expressing yourself!~ Heeee...

I was in Pavilion last week, looking at the Christmas decorations. B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L ! Red, white, gold and green everywhere! Had a great date with dearest Era and there's nothing more I could ask for! =)

I have a new look! Haha. Not so new, just new-new. My ultimate new look will be on my sister's engagement day. Hahahahhaha. IF I get permission from mummy. Please mummy, please. Hehehe.. *by new look, I mean new hair!* hahahahhahaha.. Fine, its just new color. Hahahah.

Oh well, I still have a few days till the holiday ends, and apparently I'm using them very wisely! Haha.

I've posted everything that the electives and exchange office in King's College required, and now I'm proceeding to my indemnity and insurance. However, I found out that I have to be a member of the MMA first. Haih. That means another trip to the city tomorrow to get everything done, again. Then, I need to see that person who I need to deal with for my insurance. And then, I need to go see the engagement setting. See, I'm using my holidays to the max! =D

I also went to visit my grandpa's eldest sister. She had a seizure attack at 4am and is currently really unwell. Being 101 years old, my grandpa expected the worst. Her body temperature has spiked up and she's not tolerating orally well. I hope whatever happens next would be the best for her. I've never had the chance to really know her. I see her only during occasions such as Eid. But I know, if she passes on, it will definitely break my grandpa's heart. She's all he has left. His other siblings has already passed on before them. Being the youngest, he's quite sensitive. I pray everything will be fine, and the best for everyone... And I hope I will never forget the way it feels when she holds my hand...

When the world gets darker and things seems so be so difficult, this little smile would definitely make it up..

I really should start studying psychiatry. I was told that the exams were super tough, and I really don't wanna be left behind. Haha. Right. Going shopping again tomorrow. I need a new notebook! Heeeee!~

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Comfort Zone

I'm currently home =) Yay!!!

This is definitely my comfort zone, a place where I don't have to think about anything, and do what I want to do.

I'm settling the last few bits of my electives to King's College, London, and will be heading to the bank and post office first thing tomorrow morning. However, due to the hectic week I had last week, I completely forgot to take a copy of my passport!!!

Thanks dear for helping me scan and email my passport to me. Wouldn't know what would I do without you =)

Anyway, there;'s another few days home before I head back to KL for my next postings, and I have a few things to settle, especially for kakak's engagement.

1. Get our dresses ready - done
2. Get in contact with a good 'mak andam' - anyone... please?
3. Check the menu
4. Get rooms for friends who will be coming over - done
5. Get rooms/home stay for my family that will be coming over - done
6. Get my hair done
7. Prepare the house - one month to go.. LOL

I guess that's all on my list right now.

This reminds me, I need to check the flight tickets!!!!!! =P

Fyd, I want the pictures!!! Can't update yet =(

Friday, December 17, 2010

Tron Legacy and Exams

Finally, I've finished my exams for the first two posting in fourth year. It was tough, and I was under a lot of stress during the whole duration. No thanks to some unfortunate events and misunderstandings plus the human mistakes, it really almost ruined my week. But somehow there is always light at the end of the dark tunnel, and before you know it, everything fell into place perfectly =)

I've done a lot of stupid things this week, due to my emotional instability. LoL. Sorry, to those who were hurt, and thanks for being by my side. I've always known that I have you =) heeee.. And thanks for accompanying me and spending some girly time together. Seriously, in need of more!~ Hehe.

Well, yesterday was my last paper. It was OSCE, and I wasn't supposed to go in first, but due to some circumstances, I was in the first group. I finished all the exams by 11++ and hit the road with my girlfriends. Yesterday was super fun!

Oh, back to the post.

So yea, everyone's watch the trailer of Tron Legacy right? I wanted to join Nuffnang's contest to win another free ticket to watch it, but since the show was during the exam week, so I decided otherwise. And I watched it last night with my dearies.

The movie was just an okay movie. Some parts were in 3D, some weren't. I would appreciate it very much if they could have at least let us know that it is in 2D so we could take our 3D glasses off. It was better to watch those scenes without it.

The story line was not really something interesting, but it was okay. The graphic however was really good, especially the part on the grid =) I would not want give you spoilers here though. Go and watch it!~

I wonder if Disneyland Florida will create a game for this movie. It is certainly great to be turned into a game, or a roller coaster ride. Haha.

And I LOVE the bike! It was superb!! =P

Now I'm on holiday. Will be going back to Kelantan since daddy decided against going back to Dubai this time. I really love Dubai this time of the year, Its so..... cold. Haha. Oh well, am looking forward for my London trip, I need to pray hard that I would pass all the exams first though. Huuuuuuu... Please.

Oh, I also met someone very special last week. He's a muslim icon and I felt very privileged to have the opportunity to meet him in person, and have a private dinner with him. Will update about him later, he deserves a whole post all for himself =)

Going to Melaka in an hour, waiting for my ride. Will update about the program there as well... heeeeee..

Anyway, to all my friends, happy holiday!!!

Before I forget,


Sunday, December 12, 2010

The Blue Flower

Sometimes when you're just a kid, you wonder where life will bring you. You used to dream to some day be famous, or someday people will know you and acknowledge who you are and what you've done.

Somehow some of us just gives up along the way, some deviate, and little moves forward with determination.

8th December 2010 marks yet another historical day in the simple life of my beloved friend, Noor Neelofa Mohd Noor. This is the day she was crowed as Dewi Remaja 2010!!

It wasn't an easy journey, I'm sure, the journey this petite girl has been through. Yet she has always been strong and in the end she manages to overcome all the obstacles =)

Lofa, as pretty and soft as her name may sound, with a strong and determined soul inside.

I'm so proud of you dear, and I'm so sorry for not being able to make it that day since I apparently had class till 7! =( . I knew you would win it, and I'm so happy for you! *hugs*

Spread your wings proudly and fly away, but at times don't forget to glance down and remember where we come from. I am sure you'll make it big time, and don't forget me yea!!! *winks*

I guess all those years of public speaking was worth it, aite? And thanks so much for the pictures, they're lovely!!!!

Good luck in everything, be strong facing the future, and know that I'll always be here to support you, like you've always been there for me during those years. =) I love you .

Friday, December 10, 2010

Raccoon Eyes

I was having a conversation with kakak across the hallways *yes, we do that a lot to save time and energy from traveling to steps =P* when she asked me, "Why are you having raccoon eyes??"

Duh.. The answer is too simple, and too obvious too.

My exam is starting on Monday and I'm super stressed and trying to study as much as I could. The examination this time is rather different since usually we will be having long case examination and written for one posting only. This time, we're having OSCE and written, for TWO postings!!!

I really do look like this now

I seriously have no idea how to manage this, as I've never went through this before. But there is always a first time for everything =) Can't wait for the holidays though.

Pray for me peeps!!

Oh, by the way, I would like to congratulate my dear friend - Noor Neelofa - for winning the Dewi Remaja title!! I'm gonna have a special post just for you, okay babes!!! Love you much!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The Ending Part 1

I've been introduced to Harry Potter by a good friend of mine in high school, Adilah, She keeps on asking me to read the book, but I didn't budge. It was the era of romantic novels, oh, malay romantic novels like "Kau Yang Satu" and "Ombak Rindu." I know, I know, I used to have this big thing about reading, but those novels were my preferences back then. It was even easy to get them from my friends =)

I started reading Harry Potter not chronologically. I started with the fourth book - The Goblet of Fire, and I literally forced Adilah to bring the whole collection back to school. We were in boarding school, and after our PMR we were stuck in school doing nothing, so I decided to read them all.

I remember spending my stay up time during my SPM years to read the fifth installment of the book. I'm that type you see, the type that doesn't put down the book until its done.

The last book was released in July 2007. Luckily I was on break and I had ample time to be reading the book =)

The final book was divided into two movies, to not kill the fun of it. Honestly, I am a big fan of the books, but not the movies.

However, I think due to my low expectation, I had fun watching the final movie, Part 1.

I think they had most of the parts well places, though there still are missing things that needs explanation, but I don't think the explanation needed was as much as the previous movies.

I can't wait for the second part next year.

What I've learn from this is:
Don't expect too much, you'll be happier that way =)


And I've hurt myself by hurting you...

Saturday, December 4, 2010

A Rising Star

I would like to tell you the tale of how I got to know this pretty young successful lady, but I guess it would take pages to finish a whole story! To put in simpler, we've known each other since primary school, standard 4, right? And we were in most competitions together.

Neelofa is my childhood friend. She's competing in a competition called Dewi Remaja. Its from a famous magazine, Remaja, for teens. The purpose of this competition is to find a role model and the beauty pageant.

I really hope she'll win this one, she deserves it!

So to all my readers, vote for her - DEWI LOFA to 33333!!

And to my dearest Lofa, being a star is not easy. You will have to face all the haters out there who hate you and envy what you've achieved. But to believe me when I say there will always be people who will support you and love you, no matter what you choose.

All the best, love.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Rapunzel - A Tangled Tale

I've been blogging for quite some time, and this is the first time I have ever joined any competition for my posts. My posts has been generally about my life, movies and so on. But when I saw that Nuffnang was giving out movie passes to the latest Disney movie, Rapunzel - A Tangled Tale, I had to join!!!!

So I wrote an entry entitled If I Had Rapunzel's Hair and posted the link to Nuffnang.

Guess what???!!!! I managed to win myself two tickets to watch the screening of Rapunzel - A Tangled Tale!!!!


The screening was on the 24th of November 2010 at 9.30pm, at The Curve =)

Rapunzel - A Tangled Tale is a movie about a girl, Rapunzel, with 70 feet of long magical golden hair. It is an action packed and hilarious movie with a beautiful soundtrack.

Rapunzel was stolen from her parents when she was a baby, and locked away in a tower where she was raised by the kidnapper like the child of her own. She was told that the outside world was dangerous and that she had to keep herself safe. She believed that it was her real mother, and abide to her rules without question.

Longing for adventure, she made a deal with a handsome bandit, Flynn Rider and together, they set off for an adventure!!!!

This movie is awesome, and I would say it is worth to watch it in 3D!! =) I love the songs sang in it, beautiful. And the storyline is mesmerizing!!!! I think Rapunzel's big green eyes are just pretty!!!!!

This movie is Disney's 50th movie. How cool is that?????

I'm looking forward for a lot of other movies, but in for now, I need to concentrate on my finals which are coming up soon.

Have you watched Rapunzel??


I'm trying to start over

all over again

this time, you're insignificant.

I wont care, I wont judge, I do not want to know

Maybe it isn't such a bad idea after all

Yes, it definitely isn't =)

And again, yes, I am happy.

Happier. =)

Monday, November 22, 2010

Something For Everyone

I don't have anything to wear

Look in your closet!!! It's like falling down any second!!

Haha. The usual conversation I will be having with myself whenever I think of going out.

I think my wardrobe needs a makeover. And I have limited space for that. I buy stuff like once a month or so. No wonder. I have A LOT of stuff which I've hardly worn and I wonder when I will even wear them again.

So yes, I'll be selling off my stuff, at a very cheap price!!!

Wait till it comes, will update you soon =)

Ps: Thanks to Wafaa and Shahadah for the inspiration =) heeeeee

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I Love The Way You Lie

Everyone lies. Its only a matter of how big or how small the lie can be, or will it hurt another or only hurt oneself. People lie for various reasons, be it selfish, personal or for the benefit of others. They lie for a reason, a purpose only known deep down in their hearts.

Sometimes people find reasons to lie, and sometimes people lie for a reason. Is lying acceptable?

Most of us don't realize that when we lie it is because we want to escape something and not face the consequences. But why must we lie? And why must people lie to us?

First, we lie to avoid. Avoid anything, anyone, everything. It is easier to keep things a secret rather than to put it in public. We worry about people's perspective about the truth, and if the truth might hurt someone we care.

Second, people lie to us because who we are. They know, or assume we can't take the truth. So lying will keep us feel like nothing is happening and that everything is perfect. People lie to us to make us feel better when things are not right.

Do we have the right to call someone a liar?

Perhaps. Maybe.

We can say to someone who lied to us "why didn't you tell me the truth? I would have forgave you" or "You should have told me earlier, now it can't be fix anymore." Right, as if we would know for sure how we would feel even if we tell the truth from the beginning.

We blame people for not telling us the truth, claiming that we are able to handle it. Doesn't it seem like we are just in denial. Not trying to find fault in ourselves and point fingers at everyone else. It is easier that way, the guilt and the sorrow doesn't last that long when we turn it into hatred and despise.

Sometimes we do have to look deep into ourselves and try to imagine if we have the power to turn back time, would we really be okay if the truth was told and not the lie? Like really?

I don't know the actual reason people lie. There are millions. But I do know that people lie, to save themselves, and also another. Most of us aren't that selfish. Some lie in the name of love. Nothing's fair in love and war. So I guess we shouldn't judge.

But we should also keep lying to a minimum, as trust is hard to gain.

And we need to reflect ourselves if we've been lied too. Maybe we wouldn't take it that well after all.


Friday, November 19, 2010

In The Name Of Fashion

Hey everyone! I'm introducing you to the latest collection of fashion in town, launched on the 16th of November 2010!!!

The big boss of this whole production was my senior back in high school, Miss Vivy Yusof. I knew her as she was part of the debate team, the same sports house and we apparently stay in the same block. *yes, those days*

She is a total genius, and her sense of fashion is fantastic. You would want to check out what she thinks about outfits and movies and food!!!!

She has this awesome blog

where she shares everything about her career, life, love and family. And this blog has been listed in the top 10 bloggers for FACES Magazine November issue. Congrats doll!!!! It is no wonder why people crave for her writing. =) Ps: Opah is super cute!!

I am really happy for her, a businesswoman definitely and a millionaire in the making!!! Yet still humble and abides to the laws of religion and culture. I wish her well in her dreams that are on the way to come true.

Who says you can only dream while you're sleeping?

Lets support her, shall we!!! brings you various fashions from ready-to-wear outfits to accessories and handbags. Nothing that a girl can live without. And it gives you the convenient to order while you laze around in bed all day. No need of the hurried make up and the dilemma of which outfit to wear. Choose it immediately at the tip of your finger. Perfecto!~

So ladies, take off your clothes and take out your credit card!

A Day Trip Home

I went back to Kelantan for one night to celebrate Eid with my whole family. Celebrating Eid together is a big deal for my family, especially when my parents came back all the way from Dubai just to be with us. It felt good to be able to gather as a big family. Even my uncle and his family was back, and it was a complete fullhouse on Wednesday.

Aidiladha celebration is about sacrifices. You know the story right? I mean all those muslims out there! For heavens sake, read about our religion history more than those online gossips will you?

Every day life demands us to be more rigid and more independent. If you don't think for yourself and make decisions wisely, life will just pass you by. Sacrifices are part of life. You have to be blunt and work with it.

Anyway, I received great news from London. Looks like my application has been approved and I'll be going there soon! Can't wait to see Sara and baby Mika :)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

His Tears

Last week's episode of Vampire Diaries was an uproar!!! I love every second of it! Haha. It was exciting.

Yes, I am a person who easily gets touched by simple gestures, be it an effortless drawing by a small kid, a bunch of roses by someone special, movies, songs, pictures, memories, you name it.

But the ultimate is when a guy cries while looking in your eyes!

And Damon did it. *falls in love!*

It was so charming, the way he looked into Elena's eyes and told her that he loved her, and those words. *faints!*

"I need to say it once. You need to hear it. I love you, Elena."

"God, I wish you won't have to forget this, but you do" - compels Elena with tears in his unblinking eyes and leaves.

Isn't it easy if you can make someone forget all the pain so fast, as if it never happened? I wish it would be easier to erase memories and feelings, just like that.

I wish.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Its Highschool All Over Again

Wafaa was literally nagging me to watch this movie at the cinema. I don't have any companion to watch it anyway, everyone has their own plans. So I had to postpone till I finally had the time to watch it.

You Again, was basically a very light and hilarious movie I would say. Sometimes I would bumped into someone at the shopping mall and quietly in my heart say, "Oh, its you again!" It doesn't mean that I am not happy seeing that person, the person simply takes me for surprise =)

This movie is about Marni, a grown up lady who had face the most worst phase of life during her high school years. Not only that she was called MOO *her name is Marni Olivia Olsen* she was bullied and looked down by everyone around her.

Her big brother on the other hand was the it guy, the basketball player, every girl's dream =) *gleaming eyes*. He told her not to be dictated to be whoever, but strive to change and become someone new.

But Marni's nightmare starts once more when her brother decided to marry her one and only, sole enemy, JJ, the it girl from high school that practically made her life a living hell. At first she was convinced that JJ has forgotten about her, but then she realized that JJ was only pretending and she wanted to show her brother who JJ really was!!

A lot of other things happen along the way which were funny and you feel like jumping off the chair!!

In the end, JJ apologized for all the bad things that she has done, and she regrets everything in the past. They had a wonderful wedding and the whole family was happy.

This movie has a lot of values!!!

  • don't make other people's life a living hell just because you think you're so good, you might just regret it one day
  • if you really feel bad about what you did, apologize. Its better than doing nothing
  • forgiving is the easiest way

Monday, November 8, 2010


70 feet of long magical golden hair?

At first thought, it could be quite a hassle. Even with my not-so-long hair I'm spending a lot to keep it maintained, what more with 70 feet!

When I was younger, I used to have these fine curls in my hair, yet I despise them. It was so hard to keep them together and I was teased as the doll of the class. My classmates wanted to turn a key and make me dance.

I've had different hairstyles before. Name it. Bob cut, trimming, straight cut. I've done it all!!!! I've had fringes like those china-dolls, and even a boy cut!

Then I discovered the beauty of rebonding, and I've been doing that ever since.

But I miss the curls in my hair, so I curled them, again! And I think that made it!
My curly hair!!!

I've always wanted long princess-like hair. I know it looks pretty on dolls, but what can I do, I love it!!

I think Barbie has perfect hair and I have always wanted her hair!!!!!

70feet of hair would definitely make my way into the world's record and I would definitely be famous!!

Magic hair, I would want to explore the magic that is has, maybe cutting it into pieces can turn it into gold? So I would donate a few stands of my hair to those in need, like Robin Hood!

I love Aurora's hair, Sleeping Beauty. Long, wavy and gold! Exactly what her fairy godmother wished for.

But it doesn't matter how your hair is like, what matters is how you feel about it. As long as you're happy and content, nothing matters =)

Me and Kakak, loving our hair =)

Never Trust A Pretty Girl With A Dark Secret

I know I have no life. LoL. Every other day, besides studying *yeah right* I download series! Haha. And I was introduced by dearest Pink to this series.

*Pretty Little Liars*

I'm easily addicted to series, and I was sick during the weekend, so I finished the whole first seasons within 24 hours! I'm crazy that way, so just mind me, okay? haha.

The show was really nice, it was about a group of 5 friends where their queen bee, Alison had gone missing for a year, and found buried at the backyard of her house.

However, the other remaining friends still gets messages, emails and everything from a mysterious person - A. The thing is, the things mentioned are only the secrets known by Alison. So, who is A?

There's also a lot of drama and suspense in this series, and you can't wait for the next episode! I'm dying for Season 2 already, and if I'm not mistaken, it'll be released in January 2011. Still a few months to go. =(

So now, I have a routine of downloading every other day =P Haha. Thanks to Ammar for teaching me how to download stuff. =)

Any other series that are interesting to watch???

Of Faith, Devotion and Undying Love

I was walking Pink to the library when she suddenly asked, "Nana, would you want a free movie ticket to watch the preview of a new movie?" Pink, honestly, you should have stopped at the word "Free". Haha.

Pink was lucky enough to be at CIMB Bank Dengkil during one lunch hour and won two free tickets to watch the preview of a movie in Midvalley - Hachiko. It was on the 2nd of November, a Tuesday. I immediately agreed =)

Arriving home from the community clinic at about 6 on that Tuesday afternoon, I quickly changed and got ready. After prayers, Pink came over and we were off to watch our 'free movie'. We were giggling all the way, since it was a school night and all. Excited, of course! Haha. Wafaa and Bee was supposed to come with us but due to unfortunate events they can't make it. So it was a night for two.

We arrived MidV at about 8 and immediately collect our tickets! =)

Pink was full after having ?fried bananas? for tea so I decided to have a decent burger for dinner.

9pm, we stepped into the cinema hall.

Hachiko is based on a true story of a loyal dog who awaits for the return of his master every single day for nine years, till he finally passed on. I've heard about this story before, but I can't remember the whole detail.

It was an amazingly touching story, a story that ca make you cry buckets of tears. Trust me, I have my fair share. It shows how love can be shared between man and animals. Hachiko did not know that his master had passed away, so he waited for him to come back at the railway station every single day. It was heartbreaking, but according to stories, he was helped by many who passed by.

Nine years! Can you imagine that??

What was Hachiko thinking, what did he felt? Its so hard to interpret. He can't voice out his sadness, his longing to see the person who raised him. Worst, he can't understand why he hasn't come back! *cry*sobs*cry*

In Japan, there is a bronze statue of Hachiko at Shibuya Station. Rumour has it that Hachiko was present during its unveiling. How sweet!

Dogs are so cute!!!! I want one! I remember when I was small all my friends had dogs and mummy had to buy me a dog-soft-toy so that I wont be sad. Heeeee =)

This is a really good movie, just remember to bring a box of tissue along. =)

Ignorance is Bliss

There are some things that you can easily let go without a single effort. Those things usually involve the things which are not so important or things that have nothing to do with you.

Certain things that matter can also be easily let go, provided the situation abides to certain circumstances and you are ready to move on. Some things might need a little bit more time to be able to be relieved, might take more than just a few seconds to make everything fall back into place.

Sometimes you don't realize how much something hurts you until the reality settles in. Things get difficult when all you try to do is just to seek for a single confession, and when you get it, you don't feel how you thought you would feel.

Some things are better ignored than to be approached. But curiosity kill the cat, though known, still does not stop a heart burning with desire to find out. Its not truth you want to know, its just honesty. So you say. Things might easily be said rather than done. It might not be so easy. I don't know.

I wish I could turn back time. I don't want to know. It hurts. Sorry. Give me time, I hope I'll be okay. For now, its hard, really hard. I'm sorry.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Love Me If You Dare

Game or not??

I went over to Pink's a few days ago to collect some series and movies that she think I would like. One of them was this french movie, but due to the fever, I did not immediately watch it. Last night, being super bored, adik and I decided to watch a movie.

This movie is a sweet movie about two friends who literally grew up together playing the game of dare. The prize was a round shaped tin which had a picture of a carousel with all the horses and the wonderful colours. The boy's mom died of cancer, and the girl was living in a poor condition. Together, they made life livable and they survived the odds together.

Wouldn't it be weird if life was really just a game, and to win it, we have to hurt and be hurt again and again. Sometimes we just don't get the rules, we cross lines. For some, it is easy to jump back, and there are those who would just be swayed away with what's across that line.

Can a girl be a boy's bestfriend? I say yes, though many may object me. I have a lot of guy friends who end up just being friends with me. And I have one who goes a long way back, a critic in my life, and someone who would stand up for me to protect me. I know he'll do anything to keep me safe though his words don't usually say so. Cynical, yes. But he's so far, and I feel so lost not being able to call my bestfriend when I need him the most. Oh, if you're reading this, don't blush okay! I know I said I'll be fine without you here, but I guess I still need you, just like when I needed back then when we were 17 and I got my heart broken. This is a friendship I know will last. See, you can be bestfriends. Please come home soon!

I would love to bring out that little girl in me once more, to be able to do things and just cry when I feel like it. I miss my other bestfriends who are some working and some studying far far away. I just miss laughing on the bed in our pjs and talk about school, teachers and people we love.

The movie was cute, but in the end you'd have to realize that no everything in life is a game, nor could it be a dare. It is written, and once you chose it, you can never turn back. If life is just a game, then who's counting?

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Sometimes People Just Misunderstand

I was sick since Tuesday so I skipped class on Wednesday evening. Thankfully it was just one class and I had the strength to wake up and go to the one on Thursday. What's better is Friday was public holiday :) . My fever didn't do me any mercy and my nose was literally killing me.

Anyway, on Friday I had a sisters outing day with my two gorgeous sisters, and we went for a movie! Cartoon, and in 3D! Don't blame us, we were practically raised by disney! LoL. But there were many adults too in the cinema :) hehe.

Megamind is an awesome movie! Its about a villain and a good guy.

However, the ending was not as expected in the beginning, nothing was! It was an awesome twist in the story that no one expected! Huhu..

So what have I learn from this movie (cartoons will usually have more values to learn from as it is a great form of teaching)

1. Sometimes you just be who other people want you to be, without realizing who you really are inside
2. 'Follow the flow' does not really apply in life, you have to fight for the things you love
3. Don't bully kids in school! They don't know anything.
4. If you are a big bully, maybe its time to start looking for those who were bullied by you and start apologizing! Yes!
5. Sometimes friends make you realize things you never realized before, and turn you into someone you'd never expect to be.

Anyway, I suggest that it is a MUST for everyone to watch this movie! Its cute and has its own moral values. I love it! And we were laughing the whole time till I got dyspneoa due to the cold and unresolved flu.

And yes, as expected I came home with a high grade fever. Great. Sigh. I really hope to get well by Monday. Its okay to be sick during holidays, despite the fact that I'd be home all day. But I am enjoying all the rest and attention, so yea :) haha

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

of fate

We often wonder why things turn out to be of a certain way, why the end is not what we imagined in the beginning and the journey that we went through may not go smoothly according to what we have in mind. We look back, trying to figure out where we went wrong and how things changed, not realizing some small steps that we've taken that changes things as well. Being in denial is an easy escape. We never would want to admit what we did was wrong, and keep on pointing fingers to everyone else.

Gossip Girl season 4 episode 7 taught me a lot about fate. I almost went into tears when Chuck met Blair for truce and they finally agreed that it was no one's fault. It was fate. Its not that fate didn't want them to be together, but the circumstances and events that made them sway their paths despite their desire separated them. And its irreversible.

I can so relate to this situation, a perfect situation where everything is a dream come true, yet unchangeable occurrence made our decisions differ completely, and we find destiny in a different way, from everything we ever expected.

Who can blame if there is a change of the heart? Nor one can blame if the lust is stronger. How would you know, to tell which is which? Only time.

Fate has been playing its strings in every single soul, yet we are still subjected to abide by the religious way of seeing things, where destiny is already and has always been predetermined. Maybe what we want is not the best for us, yet at that moment it was perfect. Truth is, it is a stepping stone to what is really meant to be.

Will we ever find out? Yes. Give time :)

Thursday, October 28, 2010



Tik tok tik tok ..

No one likes waiting. Being it to wait for something or someone. An anxious mother, waiting for the day she will deliver her baby, a student waiting for results and a patient, waiting to be called into the doctor's room for consultation. In the end, it is the same. Waiting.

Sometimes when the time is nearer the more anxious you get.

Right now, I'm waiting for just one thing..


It has been ages since we had those. How does it feel again? Haha. I can't wait for next year, for my trip to London. Would be using it to the max! Am planning a trip to Paris, if I can meet the budget :) And a few broadway shows. Haha.

Anyway, my days are smooth, though it feels like I'm gonna be down with a fever soon. My head is intermittently throbbing and I have a slight temperature. I don't think I'll be visiting adik this week since she's coming back on Tuesday. So I would spend this weekend resting, perhaps.

I have a few things on my wish list. Haha.

Thinking of adopting a new look. But which one?

Sunday, October 24, 2010

For Giving and Taking Back

Smile! It irritates those who wish to destroy you.

I read this on twitter yesterday and can't stop smiling. I have people I despise, but still I can't bear seeing them sad. I wish that if I were to be happy, then they are too. I feel that most of the time, but I'm no angel. There are also times when I feel like ripping out their hearts or blinding theirs eyes, literally, yes. I do have those evil thought which will usually resolve after a nap. Told you I just love sleeping! Haha.

Anyway, my week has been productive *at last* and I'm back to my usual self. No no no, not the usual self that you would know though, I haven't been me for quite some time now. Years, I think.

I remember when I was in high school, I used to have the time of my life. Music is my life. Then there is studying. I won't mind spending a whole weekend afternoon studying a single physics chapter, and I literally do it. I don't mind staying up late to revise, and to have study groups. I'm not actually familiar with the concept of study group back then, so all I would do was study, and ask anyone who was studying with me if I don't get something. Usually it would be Adilah or Chombee. Gosh. I miss those days!

I used to have a huge craze on maggie and oldies songs. Random. But I just love eating maggie during weekends, especially those 'Maggie Goreng Perisa Asli'. We didn't have a sink in the pantry and we used to dispose the water through the window! Haha. Every night, we would have a cup of milk with biscuits. Ah, bliss!

When preparing for my PMR, we moved into a bigger campus, and we had single beds! It was awesome! As PMR candidates, we were allowed to stay up and study, but due to some unfortunate events - which included an intruder and so on - that privilege was taken away. It was purely because everyone was so concern of our safety and we decided to abide by the rules and stayed up in our dormitories accompanied by the light of the corridor. I remember turning my dorm into an oldies fan when I bought the album 'The Look of Love'. I miss singing the songs out loud with them while studying additional mathematics. Yes, we're nerds. Thank you.

I would give anything for a day back in high school, no, not the exam day please. Just a single normal day-to-day routine.

I miss my friends, the band girls, my dorm mates, my classmates, my batch. I miss being able to run to the next room to cry my heart out, to be able to confront and apologize sincerely without the need to feel that the next thing after apologizing is bad mouthing about you. And immediately. I miss Iqah and Eri and the crazy Pondot!

But we grow up, and there are some things that we eventually have to let go. I used to be scared if my best friend found a new friend, but I no longer am, as I realize that we should be able to expand our horizons. You never lose a friend, you just add more to the list :) And that's how you become happy..

Friday, October 22, 2010


Honestly, if I had the cash right here in my hands, I would've bought a ticket to go back home. Whenever I say I'm homesick and I want to go home, everyone keeps asking me this question, "Which one?" I don't know. What I know is I just want to go back, to where it is safe, waking up in my bed.

I miss home so much right now. Maybe most of us feels the same, but not all can understand what I feel. I don't have the luxury of seeing my parents every weekend, I don't even have the ability to call the every day as it is too costly.

Sometimes I get those cynical questions, of why would any parent leave their children all the way in Malaysia and travel, work and stay in a different country. Is money that important to my family that we let ourselves be separated. Some even wondered if they just don't care about us.

No one knows the actual reason for this arrangement but ourselves. My parents have a definite reason of why they prefer not to work here, and it involves a lot more than money.

I miss them so much.

If I could, I want to go home right now, no matter which one. I would even want to go to my aunts in KL as it does feel like home too. I just want to feel safe, a place where I don't have to explain myself and where it is ok to make mistakes.

I would give up anything for a trip home. Anything.

My heart must be a piñata. Everybody keeps trying to break it.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


Sleep is an essential part of everyone's life. Since the day we were born, we sleep :) I love to sleep, so I usually find it hard to tolerate my sleep with other activities. I would eveb rather sleep than eat! Haha. Honest!

I have friends who share the sane hobby as me - sleeping. Somehow, when we sleep, everything seems to be okay and there is nothing left to worry about.

I can sleep anywhere I want to, as long as I have the desire to sleep. I can sleep while waiting for public transport, in any forms of transport, and anywhere at all! I once slept on the stairs near the mosque at Masjid Jamek while waiting for my friend! Haha.

Despite being able to sleep anywhere I want, I am fussy when it comes to sleeping on my bed. I must sleep with a blanket, no matter what the temperature is. And I need to hug something while sleeping, which will make me hug my pillow I'm lying on! I can't sleep if there are a lot of things on my bed, so usually I will just throw them off, and I need comfy clothes. Jeans are a total no-no for me.

Sometimes sleep makes tomorrow come earlier, and when I'm excited of something, I would try to sleep as early as possible. Sleeping early doesn't mean waking up early for me though. But sleeping is definitely a way to pass time.

Another habit that I have before going to sleep is reading a story book, or anything at all for that matter. When I was a little girl, we had those bedtime story-time every night at home, and daddy or mummy will be reading to us books such as Baba Yaga, Goldilocs, Cinderella and so on. Somehow I think it really contributed to my interest in reading.

I have friends who have certain conditions before sleeping such as no lights at all, no turning of the lights, must have music and so on. When I was in pre-U, my roommate was a really light sleeper that even the sound of me opening the cupboard will wake her up. It was really hard to tolerate in the beginning, but I learn that sometimes we will have to accept other people just the way they are. I really wonder where she is right now, Fayroozah!

I love sleeping and I think it is a way of relieving stress to. After a difficult exam paper, I would be all better after a loooong deep nap! Haha.

So what's your favourite thing to do?

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Goodbye Bones, Hello Clinics :)

It has been some time since I updated about my studies and postings I'll be in. So yea, this week is the final week for orthopaedics and next week I'll be entering the next posting - Family Medicine. Being in fourth year is different from third year in a few aspects. Firstly, we no longer have holidays after each posting. This year we're having only 4 postings, thus the holidays are only after two postings. Secondly, we have exams after two postings. It means we will have to study for two postings instead of one for the exams. Besically, it means studying more. Haha.

Anyway, I'm done with orthopaedics, without any exams. We had a mock exam earlier this week. It was spontaneous and we only knew about it on that day! Most of us were going to surrender since the marks are not counted and we discussed the papers at the end of the session. Thankfully, most of us passed :) heeeee.

Due to the final year examination, we were not allowed to enter the wards for two whole weeks. It basically meant holiday for us, and without access to the wards, we lack of practice in physical examination and history taking. We were considered as the unlucky group *only to those who are studious* as we had less patients in Terendak, and Serdang didn't help much.

My group mates has changed this year, though I still have Chia and Isha with me. However, I am grateful that my group mates are those who are very easy to mix with, and they are also very friendly and we had a great time together! We went for karaoke sessions, shopping and eat eat eat!

Next week we're starting the new posting and the group has been divided into 3 subgroups. I don't know what to expect, but there's one thing I know which is I have to start studying now, if not I will surely regret it by the end of the posting! I've been playing around too much during ortho, so yes, back to basics again! I think I'll start next week. I need to get the book 1st. Anyone going to Kamal???

I still miss my dolls tho :( I need another girls night ladies!!!

The Other Guys

It is common for everyone to notice those in the front line, the ones who are more outstanding and popular. For instance, when someone accomplishes something in life, his or her name will be mentioned till the day they die. But we often forget that there are conditions when it is not actually a one man show. There are other people involved in it, abd there is also the other guy, who helped support or maintain, but sometimes these people are just ignored, forgotten and neglected.

This movie is about what happens after two very great policeman died during duty. The two policemen were super great, they would do anything to get the bad guys. Its a hilarious movie, that even the way they died was hilarious!

After their death, every other policemen in the team wanted to be who they were. So that's about it for the story line. It is a new movie, and I would recommend this movie for those who would want a good laugh.

For me, the beginning of the story line was great. It was interesting and full of action. But as the movie progress, I can't remember how many times I glanced at my watch. It was kinda slow. But still entertaining due to the spontaneous jokes. Its a really light movie, for those who would just want a 90 minute escape from the world. :)

This movie made me realize that sometimes we do not notice those who are contributing in the background. We only see the main picture, not the whole scene.

Oh, I also did a bit of shopping :) Got myself the top I wanted so much which was in the catalog and felt really good about it. The saying "better regret buying than regret not buying" really applies in this matter :) Haha. I have a new toy in my mind which I really want, gonna start a new piggy bank for it :) heheheeh...

Friday, October 15, 2010

Idiots in Life

I've heard about this movie from a lot of my friends, those who are interested in Hindi movies gave 10 stars out of 10, and those who are not such a fanatic fan of Hindi movies even gave the same rating! My friend, a guy who in a million years will not reveal any emotions when watching movies said that he cried and the whole class cheered at him!

So I wondered, what is this havoc about this movie?

I've always love to watch Hindi movies. No apparent reason, really. Since I was a little girl, I used to watch all those old movies, and eventually I get to know about Shah Rukh Khan and all.

Well, back to the movie.

3 Idiots is the best movie ever so far. It is about friendship, family and life learning experiences. And I cried during the movie! It was super hilarious with stripes of agony and despair. It's beautiful!

I enjoyed the comedy and the drama in the movie, the friendship and the sacrifice shown is hard to achieve.

It's about life.

Could everyone in life be racing to be the best? And what happens to you if you're number 2? Is it so wrong to sometimes be unable to come in first?

Anyway, I would recommend everyone to watch this movie. Yes, sometimes you turn your back on someone to be on the safe side, but are you sure you're not jumping into a dragon's lair after escaping from a tiger's cage? It's up to you to decide =)