Tuesday, November 11, 2008


A word yet very meaningful to me. Some people hate to say it, as it hurts so deeply inside you can barely feel yourself, some people love it to get away from unwanted events or things, some people just say it for the sake of it... Saying goodbye has never been an easy thing to me, no matter to who I say it to, unless it's just for leaving to go to some kedai runcit, ok, that doesn't really count, does it?

I've been saying goodbye to the people I love and I care all the time.. I've also experiencing saying goodbye forever, knowing that I would never see that face, hear that voice again, as it has left not only me, but the whole world behind, to a better place I'm sure, though sometimes I do feel like I miss that presence. Sometimes I like goodbyes, as it indicates another meeting, something to look forward to...

Well, this is not about only goodbyes. I just sent my grandparent to perform their Hajj in KLIA. It should be a sad occasion, but since I know in no time they'll be back, it did not really hurt as much. Well you see, I've been away from my family more than half of my life, so the fact that I get to see them at the airport before they leave to Mekah is already a blessing for me. I wish that they would have a safe journey and come back healthyly. Thank goodness there's ayah su and mak long with them, so I guess me and my sister wouldn't have to worry so much.

Anyway, ma, ayah, we're gonna miss you... Come back safe and sound... Love you!~

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Znaesh Li Ti

Thanks to Syazz, she gave this beautiful Russian song to me... (when we were waiting for our class to start).. She wanted to show me the video clip which she said was so sad, but sadly youtube sometimes can and sometimes cannot be downloaded, so this time it cannot be downloaded, she asked me to watch it at home.. So now, here it is.........

Yes, indeed, it was SO extremely a sad video clip. Love triangle hurts, requited love hurts just as bad... I tried looking for the lyrics, but I couldn't find the lyrics in Russian.. Well I suppose none of us will even know how to read it.. So, here I give you the translation... It's a beautiful song.. enjoy!~

verse 1

i so got used to live for you, only for you...
watch the rise of the sun and hear u wake up but not next to me.
and now it's easier to breath with opened window...
and keep telling her only one thing:


do u know? i was walking down the night roads
barefooted not feeling pain in feet
now his heart is in your hands,-
don't brake it and don't lose it
so you won't have to carry ashes of love in hands
down the night roads, having bleeding feet
now his pulse is in your eyes,-
don't brake it and don't lose it

verse 2

and let the gray rain knock on his window in January
even that he hugs somebody else, he still remembers me anyway
and may accidentally say my name
even though he won't say it but he still remembers me's
and the rain is pouring down so hard...
my sweet boy i'm sorry for that shiver...
with the tears in the eyes whispered quïet good bye

Monday, November 3, 2008

Twilight Saga.. *favourite quotes*



Let's have a sneak peak... ngeeeee......


A girl can dream.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

Mostly I dream about being with you forever.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

I will stay with you — isn’t that enough?
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

I love you more than everything else in the world combined. Isn’t that enough?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

Yes, it is enough. Enough for forever.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

New Moon

You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.510

It never made sense for you to love me. I always knew that.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.511

Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.514

My heart hasn’t beat in almost ninety years, but this was different. It was like my heart was gone—like I was hollow. Like I’d left everything that was inside me here with you.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.515


If it hurts you so much, how can it possibly be the right thing for you?
Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.610

I’ve chosen my life — now I want to start living it.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.616

You don’t fight fair.
Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.620

Do I get points for making you cry?
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.597

How can we be friends, when we love each other like this?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.597

I’ll always be waiting in the wings, Bella. You’ll always have that spare option if you want it.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.602

Breaking Dawn

A night for celebrations.
Edward Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.752

I knew it was working then, so I concentrated even harder, dredging up specific memories I’d saved for this moment, letting them flood my mind, and hopefully his as well. Some of the memories were not clear – dim human memories, seen through weak eyes and heard through weak ears: the first time I’d seen his face… the way it felt when he’d held me in the meadow… the sound of his voice through the darkness of my faltering consciousness when he’d saved me from James… his face as he waited under a canopy of flowers to marry me… every precious moment from the island… his cold hands touching our baby through my skin… And the sharp memories, perfectly recalled: his face when I’d opened my eyes to my new life, to the endless dawn of immortality… that first kiss… that first night…
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.753

Now you know. No one’s ever loved anyone as much as I love you.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.753

Real. Does that make me imaginary?
Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.745

Now, I can't wait for MIDNIGHT SUN!~ weeeeeeeeeeeeee.........