Monday, April 25, 2011

Good Morning

From London with love

Friday, April 22, 2011


It has been a long week, a really-really long week. With exams and all, I barely have time to breathe! Okay, that's an exaggeration, but oh well, you know what I mean.

And now, everything is..


Fourth year is, and fifth year, FINAL year is coming.

I don't know how to actually feel. Happy? Sad? Glad?

Maybe I'm just contented and satisfied. I've come this far, and I can see the end of the journey. But what I have to always bear in mind - it is a start of a new one.

Well, no exams today, so I went shopping for some stuff, and got home almost midnight. I went out with my best-est friends from high school and had a really great time laughing with them. I really hope they will move in together, and then I'll have an escape =P They wanted to see me before I fly and I was touched, I'm not going for a year lah sayangssss =)

Now, there is one last thing I have to do...


I love traveling, I love packing, but this time, I have no idea what to bring. It seems like 75% of my luggage are stuff that I'll be bringing for my cousin and friends who are there which includes contact lenses and milo. LoL.

Mummy said that I should bring just enough stuff, and get everything once I'm there. But define 'just enough' for me, please?

And I still have to get something for Mika and Sara. Toys R Us tomorrow perhaps? Oh, its today. Haha. I hope the session tomorrow would be brief, I have loads to be done.

I'm excited. *Can you see me jumping already?*

It seems surreal, that the day is finally approaching.

Right now, I'm waiting for my dryer to be done so I can continue my packing process. Oh, maybe I should continue tomorrow. My eyes are barely open.


I am.


Monday, April 18, 2011

Definitely a Thousand Times Better

Thank you for always being there for me

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I Forgot..

How to play and sing like this again.

It has been sometime, since Back to December.

No, I only sing for myself, my voice is terrible =P

She's good, really good.

First thing to accomplish after exams.

Almost 24hours left

Saturday, April 16, 2011


One day to exam.

Welcome Saturday.

Wish me luck!

Ps: To study or to sleep?

Friday, April 15, 2011

My Personal Drug

We were all tired and decided to have a break from our study discussion when my Skype rang.. It was Kak Dian!! And boy, I was elated to hear Sara's voice and see her.

It was a short chat, Kak Dian had errands to run and can't be online for long. But what really made my day was.....

Sara: Today is April!!!

Me: So when am I coming?

Sara: Today!!!!!!

This was taken a few weeks back when I was at Mama's and Sara read me "The Magic Porridge Pot" =)

It's amazing how adorable she is. And Mika was going all "Look, look!" Both of them were excited to see me on skype!

And for me, it had definitely boost my study mood =) This is my own personal drug to help me go through hard days and bear with all of it. And it works each time.

It is already Friday morning, so yea - 2 days to exams!~

I can't wait, I can't wait, I definitely can't wait for next week!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Allergic Reactions

I can still remember the first time these small red dots cam on my skin. I was 15, we just moved into our new school grounds in Cyberjaya and I was bitten by ants while hanging my laundry. I went back to my room, joined my friends practicing cheer and there, I felt the itchiness and everything. It started with heat, and my skin will slowly turn into red and then small dots will appear. They usually don't last long, a few minutes to one hour, and they will be gone.

During my school years, I got the attack quite often. Cyberjaya is a hot place, and I think this rash is mainly predisposed by heat, though I have no idea if the ants that bit me had anything to do with it. We just moved to Cyberjaya, and I think maybe my body isn't used to being in all the heat. However, as I stayed longer, I barely get the reactions anymore =)

In Sunway, the reaction only happens when we do outdoor sports in the daytime. So now you know why I don't play much. I can't, and it makes my body soooooo weak, and boo me, but I don't play any sports. How do I keep myself fit?? Erm, walking, perhaps. I don't have an answer. But I'm not lethargic or anything, so I think I'm doing fine for myself =) And I can't exercise as much either. So if you ask me my secret to weight loss, it will never be exercise. Its diet, good and healthy one. I have gastritis too, so I can't go all day without anything in my tummy. Besides, food is my middle name =P

When I first came to this college, this thing did not happen that often. But now, I can't exactly recall since when, it happens almost each time I get into the hot sun!!!

It doesn't really give me any effect, just annoys the hell out of me. But now, even after years of having it, I'm still not used to it. A quick cold shower will usually do the trick. I was told to take antihistamines for a week, but yea, I am a medical student, but I am never good in taking medicine. I tend to forget actually. Hehe.

If this is really a heat problem, then I don't think there would be any solution. Malaysia is hot. Or maybe, a transfer would do the trick? In your dreams Nana. LoL. *but I would love to*

And yes, I am writing this entry as I have just came into my house after sending Syazz to her car as I needed her favour to send something for me, and in that less than 5 minutes exposure to sunlight, I got the redness and heat. Am seriously thinking of taking an afternoon nap.

3 days to exams peeps!~

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

If I Could..

and I would..

Just sleep till it is time to leave =)

Heeeeeeeeeeee.... Need to study lahhhhh!~ My girlfriends are trying their best to make me study, thanks *hugs*

But me?

My mind is not really here. Thousands of miles away!

I can't wait~~!!!

Exam is in 4 days! Yikes!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


I know I shouldn't be doing this. In fact, I should not do anything else but to study for tomorrow's quiz. But I was driving home when this song came up on the radio and it got me walking down memory lane, to a time that was so different than what it is now, a time when people were different.

This song speaks so much of the feeling, that soft whisper that keeps on nagging at the back of my mind. A voice that is too difficult to shut down, as it means that I would have to be amnesic, and no, that won't happen, will it?

I know that I don't, and I cannot look at you the same way like I have before. Time has changed, and told us that what we shared has come to an end. But it was genuine, tho it was short. Short, and just sweet.

And let me pour what I have always felt here. Sometimes I do wonder the what ifs and the coulds that would be if things were different. But my destiny has always been there, and had been predetermined. It is not that we are not perfect, we were just not perfect for each other.

I can still recall everything we did together, and it brings laughter and tears at the same time. Things are definitely not the same without you by my side, but it doesn't mean that I can't do it on my own. I've learn how to stand on my two feet, I have been all along until you offered to hold my hand. But now, I'm relearning it. It is not easy, to let go of something that makes you feel so secure and safe, to the vulnerability and the possibility to trip and fall down anytime.

I can't look at you, in the eyes. It hurts to know that much of pain and sorrow I've put you through. But as always, it takes two to tango, and I'm not saying you're to blame totally. Both of us have our own pros and cons, and maybe it is too difficult for us to match that. Maybe, we'd fine the perfection alongside someone else, not each other. I have my share of faults too. And for that, I am sorry.

Everything happens for a reason. I met you, for a reason. Nothing in life is just 'simply'.

I hope that the anger and hate inside you has subsided, or if it has not, will, and someday we can be friends. I still remember the names you called me, the accusations to yelled to me. And I hated having to think about arguments over arguments which wont settle. I hate you, hated you. I don't anymore, because it is too tiring and it consumed the best out of me.

This song, is for you. I know we are no longer in each others life. But as I said, destiny has its way. It could be twisted, difficult and challenging. Even though I don't see you, you'll still be apart of me, like a tattoo. Who I am today, is because of those people who have been in my life, no matter if they stayed or not.

This part explains it all:

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could stop,
admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm happy now, like really happy. And I hope you will be too, no matter with who. I won't hate you anymore, and I pledge to try not to let you cross my mind again. I know it is not easy, but I'm trying to say STOP whenever they come, and turn to my every reason I should right now.

I just wish that one day we can smile and talk to each other, even if it is just as friends, cause you are a great friend to me.

Monday, April 11, 2011

I Miss You

And I can't wait to see you in a couple of weeks!~

As for now, it's exam time. 6 more days to go. Wish me luck!

Ps: I kinda like the exam timetable. Haven't packed anything at all!!!!~ Weeeeeeeeee..

Keeping up with the good mood and positivity =) Thanks to beloved girlfriends. *I love our own private group!* And thanks to their abnormal working hours to be able to accompany me study =P heeeeee....

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Even if

... it kills you to do so.

It hurts your ego, and brings you down.

But how kind and nice a guy if, once he walks out on a girl who is crying, is heartless.

And no, not a big fan of JB. Its just these words are the sweetest thing a guy could ever do.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Laughter and Tears

A couple of week back, a good family friend of ours came back from Jeddah to visit his wife and children who are in Malaysia. His wife is continuing her studies in a local university, thus she decided to stay put in Malaysia with her two children while her husband receives an offer to work in Jeddah. Before, he was working in Dubai, and being part of the Malay community there, we knew each others' family like our own!

They are really a good couple, and like a brother and sister to me. They give me advice on studies, my stress and sometimes my personal life. Sometimes its weird how you get connected to some people that you feel like you've known them forever, and cherish them deeply in your heart, people who just happen to cross your path, and be a part of your life.

I was unwell during the gathering, but I managed to see him a day before his departure to Jeddah. We had so much fun talking, and I just love the kids so much. We were laughing about everything, and updating one another about what has happen and will happen though we actually know as we contact through BBM.

Before he left, his wife posted a picture of his daughters crying, begging him not to leave. And it broke my heart. They are just kids, his eldest is 9 and youngest is 5. What do they understand about leaving, and the pain it brings?

He sacrificed a lot for his family. I would know, my parents are far away too. And I hate the fact that I can't tell them everything. Would you call you mother when you are sick, or stressed? No, you'd go home to be in their arms, right? You would seek advice from your dad, and listen to him. For me, even telling them that I am sick might be a burden to them, as they might get worried excessively and it would effect their health. Mind you, they are not that young anymore, and being far, their worries would escalate more than ever.

I understand what the girls are going through. I, too, am a child who is here without both parents. They are young, and its easy to get them to see the bright side of things. But there will always be this empty hole inside, where they will always be unable to fill. I have that too.

I just hope both parties are strong enough to endure whatever comes their way. The father must be heartbroken to leave his children, and the children will be empty without him. The mother, she will be left with a lonely heart that no one in this world could comprehend. Its not easy, really.

I miss my parents so much, and that there's a part of me who is never complete, never enough. I know I'm still lucky to be having them around, as I have friends who their parents have passed away, and that is even more languishing as they will never be able to see them again, not in this life. And I realize that there are too many mistakes I've done towards my parents, and I am never a perfect child to them. But I love them with all my heart that no one in this would could ever beat, and I hope I would someday be if not perfect, good enough to be called a good child.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Lat the Musical

Being a huge fan of musical and broadways, I can't say no when a dear friend asked me to come to the latest musical in town

Kampung Boy
Sebuah Musikal

I can't agree more that Harith Iskander and Hans Isaac had done a great job directing this musical and the whole team, Awie, Atilia and the rest were simply superb!!!

A few of my friends have watched the show, and all they gave me were positive feedback, so I was excited to watch the show.

Lat the Musical is based on Lat's life, his cartoons, and everything else. If you grew up reading his cartoons, this is definitely a must watch, for those who don't it is surely a pure musical that complies with what it takes to make a play turn into a musical.

What I find interesting in this show is how the concept of One Malaysia is put together. There were dialogues in Malay, Mandarin and also Indian language, and it shows our multicultural country well.

The whole show is based on the true story of Lat, or Dato' Mohammad Nor Khalid, how he managed to be a renown cartoonist, recognized all over the world.

From this play, there are two most important lesson that I've learn:

1. Nothing is impossible
Lat proved that he could become a professional cartoonist when all his friends laughed at him to have such bizarre imaginations. The whole world knows his name, Lat from Ipoh, and he is forever proud to be called a Kampung Boy. He never forgets where he comes from, that's most important =)

2. Behind every successful man stands a strong woman
This play shows the sacrifices made by his wife when he was gone, the pain she had to go through raising their children. She was lonely, and needed him sometimes, but at times when he was just too busy to be there, never did she turned her back on him. I have really high respect for such woman, and I pray one day I'll be the woman behind one man as well.

There were some parts in the play which were really hilarious, and a few made me cry.

I would say the songs were catchy and the tune was good. The choreography? Splendid!!!

Tonight is the last night of the show. So to those who missed it this season, lets hope there's another season to it =P

ps: PGL is still #1!~ Will there be a season 4?

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Maybe We All Should

.... Just go with it.

Last night, after millions of cancelled dates, okay, not THAT much, but well, I'm the drama queen again, so yea, I finally met my Wafaa. =)

It was difficult planning a date with her since we are now in different groups and all, but we've proved it to not just be about the times spent together, but also the times spent apart.

So we went to Alamanda to watch a movie - Just Go With It.

For me, I had no expectations, no bad ones, as there's Jennifer Aniston and Adam Sandler, what else could you ask for????

And Brooklyn Decker is hot. I would know, all the guys in the theatre went all oooooohh and aaaaaaaahhh during the beach scene and they actually showed their genuine frustration when they cut some scenes. LoLz.

Indeed, we were again not dissapointed by the whole movie. It was good =)

I would say that the appearance of Nicole Kidman was really great. I've loved her since forever, okay, since Moulin Rouge, but oh well, she was all funny and OMG her hair. I would die to have that hair she had in the movie!!! =P

I would say that everyone goes through that phase in life where a previous mistake makes your life better. And eventually you are too content with that life you created around the lies, around the hate and bitterness, that you never would want to be back on the right path as it is too easy.

But there is always that one person who knows you best, who sees you for who you are, and despite all the lies, there is this person who knows everything about you, every single truth.

And you never would realize if the person in front of you is the right or wrong one. You should just go with it.

Everyone wants their life to be well planned, but not everything happens as planned, right?

I don't wanna turn back now. I'm just going to go with it.

Maybe by just 'going' with life, we would be able to appreciate the wonders around us better =) Sometimes, you just have to stop and smell the flowers.

The night ended perfectly for the three of us. I was hoping to catch a late drink with Wafaa, but I'm not really feeling well. Sorry dear. Anyway, I really hope the reunion will happen, maybe before we start our fifth year at least???

I miss my dolls. Sigh.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Hopping The Night Away

Thanks to Nuffnang, I got free movie passes to watch the latest cartoon in town!!! *grins*

The movie was in Cineplex Damansara, at 9.30pm. Since I had classes till noon, we left early to catch a quick dinner before the movie.

As usual, the tickets will be released one hour before the movie and will be given according to the seat arrangements from top to bottom. Even though its a free ticket, I wouldn't want to sit in front, so we we literally waiting in front of the counter. And guess what??? I was first in line!!!!! Heeeeeeeeee.....

At 9.30, we went into the hall..

This story is about E.B., the Easter Bunny's teenage son, heads to Hollywood, determined to become a drummer in a rock 'n' roll band. In LA, he's taken in by Fred after the out-of-work slacker hits E.B. with his car. What happens next? Watch it and find out!!!

This movie is super cute!!!!! *can I have a bunny???*

We went back elated and content, happy =)

I'm looking forward to win more movie tickets in the future....... Weeeeeeee