Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Of Being A Bride-to-Be

My wedding is the 11th wedding in our family. The first wedding in my family (of our generation) was Angah, held in April 2004. It was a really enjoy-full year for us, with Abg Nain in September and Along in December 2004, followed by yearly weddings :)

Since then, I was always involved in the making of the wedding. I would follow mama to Bunga Riben or Semua House or SSF to get supplies and we will be making our own door gift and bunga pahar. I had so much fun during every wedding or engagement ceremony as it would involve crystals, ribbons, flowers and even chocolates and muffins!!!

When my parents said - no engagement, the discussion that day was the ceremony -.-" , just nikah - I was surprised. Then I started to write in a new notebook - Nana's Wedding Planner 2012. I have my own dream wedding and I wanted it to be as much as a reality as possible.

Many of you would think that I would want a grand ceremony that would cost a fortune. I believe that every girl wishes for a blank cheque to be able to spend for their wedding, but I realise that a wedding ceremony is only a one day ceremony, it's the marriage that would last a lifetime.

So I sat down with Mr. Fiancé and started to write down a timeline and things that needed to be done. Call be OCD but having organised multiple weddings before, I hardly missed anything.

Experience does matter when organising your own wedding. Helping mama all those years in all the previous weddings gave me the opportunity to plan ahead, having multiple backup plans and having a strict timeline.

I am grateful that my wedding preparations are almost 90% done, and that everything in my checklist has been done. Now it is time for me to focus on the pre-wedding preparation - my final MBBS examination.

I am also grateful having such an understanding fiancé. We hardly fight for anything regarding the wedding and everything decided is based on a team agreement. Thank you sayang. But we do fight, on when to submit our reports and time to study -.-"

As a bride-to-be, I have my own concerns regarding my wedding, and also my exams just before it, but I would like to thank my family for always being supportive and help me whenever in need. Being a student I don't have that time to go for facial treatments (never been to one my whole life!) body spas or anything as such, but all I do is burry my head in books (and reports). Having another friend who is going to have her nikah one day after mine also gives me the chance to be more expressive and I know I have someone else (other than Mr. Fiancé) to listen to me :)

Just weeks from now I'm going to become a wife, and I pray that everything goes well, before, during and after the ceremony. Ameen.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

My Sayang

Sometimes love comes when you least expect it to, in the weirdest times and moment, and stays with
you for a lifetime.

It's hard for me even to begin to tell the beginning of our love story. It is not romeo and juliet, nor is it between a prince and a princess. It is just a story about two people who loves each other, and plan to stay together forever.

Different, is the word I would use to describe this man that I am going to marry. He fell in love with my character, and I fell in love with his care at first. It was different and difficult back then, so I denied my feelings towards him at first. But his persistence made me fell even more deeply in love with him. He's not pushy, not emotional and completely rational.

Our love blossomed in the oddest times, a time of darkness, but we found the light and made it through.

What I love most is his acceptance, his care, the way he takes care of me and advice me to be a good student, a better daughter and closer to God. He tries to make me a better person overall. He accepts my past and stays in the future, and has taught me that people change.

He is my best friend. Yes we have our differences and we will have them till the day we die. And we do argue, a lot, with tears and sweats. But our arguments has shown to make our love only stronger. The more we fight the closer I am to him, and the deeper I fall in love with him.

He is far from perfect, and so am I. But we complete each other and that is what matters most.

With a final examination coming and the wedding after, it has been difficult for us. It is indeed stressful, and both of us needs to focus on our priorities, which are both!

This post is for you, sayang.

No matter how hard things may be for us, I will be by your side and stand by you, as your fiancé and soon enough as your wife. I can't wait to spend forever with you.

I love you, Ahmad Farid Zulkifle.