Friday, October 30, 2009


Sometimes it brings me pleasure to please other people, thinking about their pain and suffering breaks my heart. I would to my very best try to give the best hospitality to anyone I could entertain, anyone who would need my help and anyone I could help.

Seeing patients everyday as a part of my medical training really gave me the opportunity to have compassion and passion to care. A girl asked me if I could be her sister as she was the only child, with a smile on my face I said yes. We are all brothers and sisters and it is a responsibility to help each other.

Life is beautiful.

Yesterday I went swimming in the sea next to our chalet with my friends. The water was warm, and calming, really helped me to sleep well after some incidents that really hurt me. Haih. It's difficult. Yes, it is. For me.

Don't smoke! STOP smoking! Last night an old man walked into the emergency department complaining of shortness of breath. He was and still is a chronic smoker. It breaks my heart each time he apologizes for troubling us in the emergency department. He went there with his grandson which in my opinion did not really look like he cared much. He was actually smoking in the car while his grandfather was being given oxygen to stabilize his partial pressure of oxygen.

Movies awaiting:
Jennifer's Body
This Is It
The Time Traveler's Wife

Owh, I'm in a romantic and family movie mood. Enough of gun shots for a while, okay?

I can't wait for the weekend. I need my dose of sleep and rest. Sigh, guess I will not be going back to Cyberjaya this week. Better have ultimate fun in Melaka while I still can =)

Listening to Kris Dayanti's latest song: Jangan Biarkan Cinta Menangis...

Ada kerinduan hampiri hatiku
Membawa diriku di dalam kesunyian
Kau bawa aku terbang
Dan melupakan semua masalah tentang kita

Rasa rindu ini tak pernah berlalu
Iringi langkahku mengusik di jiwaku
Kau aku bawa terbang
Dan melupakan semua masalah tentang kita

Tak ingin aku mendengar kata berpisah darimu
Sungguh ku tak sanggup menerima kenyataan ini

Tak ingin aku mendengar kata berpisah darimu
Berikanlah aku kesempatan meyakinkan
cinta kita

Begitu ku agungkan cinta
Yang tertulis nyata di hatiku
Jangan biarkan cinta ini menangis…

I'm following a series on TV3 - Sumpah Bunian. Yes, it sounds ridiculous, but Era and I seems to keep the television on 24/7 as long as we're in the room and I find the story line to get more interesting :)

Era & Bhav's going back. Me left with Wafaa, Tim and Mimi.. Come back soon!!!!!

Kak Yam, may your marriage be blessed forever.. I'm sorry for not being there tonight. I know you will definitely glow in your wedding dress. Congratulations. He must be a very lucky man to hold your heart. My doa' will always be with you =))

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I have learnt not to..

Wear a white blouse on a rainy day
Sleep during times I've never slept
Laugh out loudly in public
Walk aimlessly
Drive without a destination
Give in too much
Saying 'YES' all the time
Keep feelings to myself
Pretending to be happy all the time
Act as if nothing happen
Not trust my instinct
Shop non-stop
Give too much
Trust too deeply
Love unconditionally

Well, I guess I never learn anything at all..

Monday, October 26, 2009

I miss you

I am not feeling so well today, my vertigo getting worst by the minute. So I asked some medication from Dr. Azlan and was sent home by Chia. It took me a while to actually be able to take a nap as I am not used to taking naps at 10am! Huhu. Thank goodness my patient will not be entering OT until at least tomorrow. So at least I'll get a chance to assist her later. I finished off my seminar task and had a quick revision and eventually I fell asleep.

I dreamt of Sara and Kak Dian. Gosh, I miss them tremendously! I wish I could just be there, I really need someone to talk to, someone to share everything. Sara was so cute when she said 'I love you Aunty Nana' I miss that small hands holding mine, I miss the way she makes me stay and not to return to 'school'. I just miss her, them.

I just woke up. Ammar's call woke me up. Then Zubair and Chia called. Yes, I am fine, just hungry =P

I think I left my notebook in Cyberjaya. Definitely a reason to go back this weekend. Last week I had so much fun - had my dose of movie and karaoke and also SLEEP! Ok, I am not really working or staying up late ever since I was in Terendak, but to be able to sleep in my own bed really makes a difference! I brought my comforter with me now, so I will no longer be having ice-cold-sleepless-nights. Yay!

You! I miss you. (fullstop)

Currently listening to two new tracks by Carrie Underwood, Temporary Home and Mama's Song. Real nice!

Got a text message from Zu today. I miss you woman!!!

The internet connection is considerably OK. Will be having an online class with Mr. Ahmed later after Maghrib. How cool is that?? Haha.

Still a lot in my To-Study-List. Got to get things going. Mid-posting exam is just.... next week!!! I haven't even started studying the first week's seminar. Gosh, now I just realized that!!! Hope this pain in my head goes away soon. Can't stand it! Need to study lah. Urgh!!

I miss home too =(

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Just another day

Well yea, today is just another day when I opened my eyes. Another day where I will either going back home with a smile on my face or a frown till dawn. But hey, it's life.

Things happen for a reason, so they say. Last night I was online with a close friend, she was sad, she was hurt. Dear, I will always be here for you. I know your heart is broken, and they say time will heal. Honestly for me, time does not heal, but it makes you stronger. You learn from the past and re-live the future. Sayang, heart-breakers will one day get their hearts broken too. Trust me. And I love you.. :)

Current mood: Blur

Haha. I noticed that I am almost always blurrrrr.. Urgh, too much blood in the system, maybe?

I'm now in Cyberjaya, had classes in RC Putrajaya. I wish I could stop by PJH and visit my group mates who are there. Urgh, really miss them!!!!!!!! Will be leaving for Terendak this evening. Era reminded me not to forget her. Haha.. Tonight we will be having rounds for pre-op. It is to get cases and know the cases and study the case for the operation the next day.

I need to prepare my report!!!!! Two more to go.. And TBLs. And and and.. STUDY!

I will not be coming back *maybe* for another two weeks.

Ammar, you owe me breakfast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I'm so lazy to even get up from my bed. Please get into the mood madam!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

One Week in Surgery

Hello peeps. It's been quite some time since I've updated my blog. Have been busy with the Surgery Posting, currently attached to Putrajaya Hospital. I'll be going to Terendak this Sunday for three weeks. Then the posting will be continued in Putrajaya Hospital.

Going to Terendak is not really an issue, my grandmother is there in Melaka. But it is devastating to have to split up the group! We've been so close during the whole Public Health posting in Sepang, and suddenly it will only be the 10 of us leaving the rest behind. Yes, we will be rotating the attachment site, but it is SAD!!!!!

I will definitely miss Syaz, traveling around and talking about boys, Ishani and her sweet voice, Zubalqiah and her giggles, Rusha oh just how she cares, Salasiah the way she is so sweet, Hamidah and her non-respondent-ness, Omar just how he makes everyone laugh, Zaizul and his way of controlling things, Farid with the advices, Hafiz with all the chit chat; and last but not least Ilyas and his blur-ness.

Well, then who will I be leaving to Terendak with???

Wafaa, Tim, Era, Mimi, Bhav, Chia, Abe, Zubair and Firdaus.

Haha.. definitely seems like a group up to some mischievous projects and stuff =P

I will be staying in Melaka for the next three weeks. Haha. Have promised the girls to go shopping and movie-ing. Hope time flies fast and I will be back here again. *Sigh*

Anyway, I'm waiting to go to several open houses. Think my ride is here. Ngeh.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009


Wake up!
Sleepy... really..

*no idea.. currently in Surgery Posting*

more updatessssss to come. :)

Sunday, October 11, 2009


Today I finally watched a movie after more than two whole months.Why??

1. It was Ramadhan.. so.. erm.. trying to turn over a new leaf
2. I was in Nilai the whole time!!!! *almost*

Well, today is officially my last day in Nilai, and I am grateful for it. Firstly, I will update about what happened more later in a separate post, and I also need to update about Abang My's wedding. OwMG, it was awesome. But first, let me continue about the most wonderful movie I just watched.

Everyone knows what happened back then in 2004, but no one will ever know the grief and sorrow that the family members faced. It was definitely hard for them, hundred thousands of lives, gone in just a few minutes. How can it be, when you are so happy and at the peak of your life, then sudenly everything is gone.

This story is really moving and motivating. Definitely. I like the story line, it is almost just like something Yasmin Ahmad or Khabir Bhatia will make. Really.

I have so much to tell, which one to start?? Haha.. Maybe later I won't even have the time to update. Figures.

Monday, October 5, 2009

10 things I hate about you

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around,

and the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

not even close

not even a little bit

not even at all.

-Bianca Stratford

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Just another night

It's another night in RC.

*red sign*