Saturday, March 26, 2011

Who Do We Live For??

Just watch this... and think.

The Other Side

Last night I had a change of plans. I was supposed to be at home doing some stuff when my friend told me that he'll be around, and insisted on watching a movie. So as usual I would purchase the ticket online to ensure a good seat and all. Then another friend texted and asked me what my plans were, so I invited him to join us as well =) The more the merrier right??

So what movie did we watch??

I would say that this movie is okay. It is not really the type of cartoon which is simple and cute and all. But you need to think deep as this story has a moral value of its own.

Rango is a lizard who apparently got lost in the desert and all he wanted was water. He was not sure who he was, he had no name, no identity.

This story shows that if you believe in yourself, anything is possible =)

My favourite cartoon is still Tangled =P

Today I'll be having a girls day out with my two dolls. Need to get ready!!!!

Friday, March 25, 2011

There's More to Life

When you look back, 20, 40, 60 years from now, what do you want to see yourself as? Who was that little girl, handsome boy, great friend, a mother, a father? Did you manage to achieve all your goals in life? Did you satisfy yourself? Is it enough?

We don't realize that there is more to just being 'me'. Someday we will just realize that what we do today, will just be a small part in our journey in life.

Is it worth to be having negative feelings, to always be comparing and never had the chance to get to know and to love. All this hate, the cliques, the anger... till when?

We grow up, get to know new people, old friends stray, and some may stay. Some becomes acquaintances, some becomes lovers. Some gets heartbroken, some fall in love. That's life.

Someday, we will realize that all these feelings are actually just a small chapter in life, that there's something bigger, greater out there in the world. And we will realize that if all this while we have lived in negativity, it has been consuming our time, our life and energy. It darkens our heart and shuts us from seeing the light, the good in people, the fact that people change, that includes ourselves.

There's more to life than being the most popular kid in school, there's more to life than being a smart student, there's more to life than being in love, there's more to life than being rich. All these things will fade in the end, as people grow older, and finally die.

We are not, NEVER perfect. So why judge people? Why hate? Why be angry? Yes, those are unavoidable feelings, felt by every human being, including yours truly. But the main thing is how do we respond to it? Live with it, or turn it into something better?

As in the end, there is always a greater power that we will abide and turn to. Is He satisfied by what we've done here? That's the only question that matters. As we are from Him, and to Him we will return.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

I'm Not


I'm just lucky

Lucky to be able to learn from mistakes other than my own.

Lucky to realize that everything is not what it may seem.

Lucky to be reminded to be careful

Lucky to have great girlfriends who wont budge no matter what

Lucky to have those who still care

Lucky to have a small number of those who still listen


Lucky to have you.

And for that, I'm grateful =)

I love you.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Study Mode

Turn ON =)

Hope no pause or stop or anything this time..

Its exam season yawwww...

Sunday, March 20, 2011

I'm Being...

... happy.

And that's that =)

Thanks sayang.

to Zawir, have a great one!~

Saturday, March 19, 2011


I wish you can understand. And I wish I could too..

Get It Right

I'm in love with the Glee original songs sang during the regional!!!

The first one is Get It Right, Rachel's solo. In this show, Rachel appears to be an annoying girl, always wanting everything for her to be a star. In the beginning of the show, I thought she was just chasing her dream to be a star, but as the show progresses, I realize that she is much more than that.

Glee is the one show that addresses everything a teenage could undergo.
From teenage pregnancy,to homosexuality, to finding your true self, and to just being yourself.

Rachel is someone who believes in herself, and the lyrics of this song says it all. No matter how long it takes, you'll get it right, somehow =)

Sometimes I wonder if what I'm doing is right, but I've already chosen that path. So all I can do is to try and try again, till I get it right.

Life can only suck so far, but as long as you're still living, you are.

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

The second song is Loser Like Me. This song feels so, close. Haha. I never thought Glee could actually understand and say it out perfectly.

Sometimes people just love to bring other people down so that they can feel good about themselves. In actual fact, these are those who are really scared. So to those who are being toss around, or tossing people around, rethink.

I have people talking shit about me, believing stories, rumors. Life's like that. And hell, I don't give a damn anymore, cause you people don't effin' deserve that attention. =) I'm happier than I can ever be right now, and that's that.

Be matured and stand up to your principle. Better, stand up for yourself. Own up the things that you do, and ASK when you don't know.

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

Intermediate Life Support

Do you know how to swim?

I love water, I can spend hours in a swimming pool or river or ocean or anything. But no, I can't swim. LoL. All I can do is splash water here and there, get myself wet, and splash water, again. Hehehe. I wanted to go for swimming lessons so badly, but everything seems to get in my way. Someday, maybe =)

Thursday and Friday we had an Intermediate Life Support Course in college. We had a looooooooooong lecture from 3-7 on Thursday to explain about the theories of life saving and all, and a whole morning at the swimming pool on Friday to do the practical part.

I woke up on Friday with NO voice at all. I've been having this sore throat since Monday, and I lost my voice on Friday. G.R.E.A.T. Hmph.

Anyway, I love the MMU pool. Its big and all, and there were floaters, so I wasn't that scared =)

We learned how to save someone from drowning, and in the same time to protect the spine and so on. It was really great.

The day ended with a written exam =P

Honestly, after the course, I want to learn how to swim even more. I envy my friends who can easily float, and to you, berlagak ok! Wekks =P Maybe I should start classes soon with Kak Anje =)

But since I had vertigo a few days back, the visit to the swimming pool was really a bad idea. I'm having vertigo for hours now, maybe because of the water in my ears and stuff. And being home alone, well that says it all. Luckily its kinda getting better and I'm off to KL =)

And to all, do learn how to swim. 2/3 of our world is filled with water =)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


A friend asked me today...

How did someone who despised you so much in the past

turned into someone who adores and is deeply in love with you?

I have no answer.
Do you?

Monday, March 14, 2011

Kasih Najihah

Remember Lofa???

Well, tonight, 14th March 2011, at tv9, her first malay drama

Kasih Najihah

is on air!!!

It will be every week, on Monday and Tuesday, from 8.30 to 9.30 pm. Mark your calenders and make a date after 9.30pm! =P You can have dinner at 8, I did. Heeeeee....

After watching the first episode of this, a few things came to my mind

1) Wow, she can act!
2) I can't wait for the next episode!!!!
3) She's definitely soaring high in the industry =)

I love the first episode sayang. Can't wait for your movie to be out!!

All the best. Love you, always =)

Missing You

This very minute, this very second, I miss you...

Sunday, March 13, 2011


Even if it takes forever, I will.

And not to take you down that same road again, I promise.

The Perfect Night

Fido & Bella
12th March 2011

It was just perfect, though I had to sit a few tables away from my friends, * I arrived SLIGHTLY late and BEFORE the ceremony started, but the crowd was HUGE!* the food was awesome and the whole thing went by without any hiccups =)

Bella is my friend from high school. Being in the orchestra and all, I did not have much time with her, to get to know her, but she's a really nice and lovely friend. I often see her at the corridors of our hostel and sometimes stop by to say hi. One thing that I can definitely say about her is that she is stunningly beautiful, with a personality to look up to. She's kind, soft, and everything in the world a guy could ever dream of.

Fido on the other hand was my classmate in Sunway University College, and the person responsible to turning me into a guy. Hahaha. Not to blame him though, we were close, all four of us, since day 1, and since I hung out with him, a lot, it made me part of the guys, not the girls. We studied together, with Master Arif and crazy Izzat, not to forget Malik *I wonder where he is right now* Gosh, I miss college. If I were to talk about him, I might as well name this post Fido, but since Izzat told us to be nice to him on his wedding day, I decided otherwise =P

Dear Fido and Bella, I'm glad to say that seeing both of you on the stage last night was a proud moment for all of us. Fido, watching you grow up to become a man that will forever be by Bella's side is the best thing of all. *even Arif said that* I pray that your love will shine and grow and bloom till eternity, and that both of you will always be together through think and thin, no matter where life brings you. It is not the end of the road, it is just the beginning. Good luck, all the best, and whenever you need us, we'll be here.

After the whole ceremony ended, I went to join my sunway group. It was good, though not all of us could make it. There was Arif, Izzat, Hanson, Jo, Ai Fang and Hanna. As usual, the table was so havoc and we can't stop laughing.

When we were still in college, Fido invited us to his sister's wedding in the neighbouring hall, and after the ceremony we harassed the stage like mad! Today, we did the same thing, and it felt like nothing has changed. =)

And as usual, Izzat did his crazy moves.

Oh, not to forget, since Fido was from SAS, I had a chance to meet my old friends as well - Amir, Pko, Rahmat, Afiq and the rest of the lot. Hahahha. I remember their names, but their faces were all just so different.

The best part in seeing them was when I met Amir's girlfriend, Hana, which was actually someone I knew from UNESCO camp back when I was 16!!! What a small world. Talking to Hana, its like things have never changed, we still talk about the guys that were weird during the camp, the activities, the plays, the jungle trekking. sigh. It was so fun that I did not want the night to end. We exchanged phone numbers and made a promise to have lunch together some day =) Hopefully it will come true, I miss this girl, like A LOT!

Then, it was time to say goodbye. We planned to hangout, but Jo had to go back by 12, so scrape that. It was fun seeing them and I can't wait till everyone comes back to have a mega reunion with the whole S3 class.

Ps: Thanks for coming with me =) xoxo

Saturday, March 12, 2011

My Wardrobe

I have nothing to wear, like literally, ok, not so. I've been frantically searching through my wardrobe for something decent to wear for my outing with adik and FyD today, but nothing seems right. Haih, I need more clothes!~

Shhh.. I know I shouldn't complain, but I am the type of girl who once get something I love or adore, I'll wear it over and over and over again, and I neglect my other outfits. Poor them, maybe they merajuk with me already =P that's why I can't find anything... Sigh.

I need a shopping spree, but I'm saving up for my trip. A shopping trip during summer sale in London sounds cool.

And just for those who wonder, no, I don't have space anymore!~ LoL. Maybe I'll rearrange things once I'm done with my exams and I'm at the verge of packing. Yes, I'm excited, but someone popped my balloon - exam dulu sayang. Okay, okay, I won't get too excited, yet. Hahahah.

Lets get ready to hit the road!~ Weeeeeeeee....

Friday, March 11, 2011

Weekend =)

Yay! Weekend is here and I'm looking forward to it, as always.

First, adik is back, so will be spending the WHOLE weekend with her before she and kakak goes back leaving poor me behind. Can I take a one week off and go with them =( Its really not fun when you are left all alone, so I have some options in mind, some places I'll crash into.

This weekend marks another.... 6 weeks before the big journey. Heeeee... Me counting stars, erk, days.. hahahah.... I can't wait. I can't wait! I can't wait!!!!! Hahahahahhahaha.

And it also means another 5 weeks before exams. I didn't do well for the previous one, and only a few people know why. Haha. Stupid of me actually. Not going to let my stress overrule again! Heee. So now I'm TRYING to start to study. My study mate will be back next week. Double yay-ness!~ Ok, fine, you are back now, but we're not studying during weekends, are we?

I have a lot of stuff planned for the weekend, and I'm looking forward to the wedding of the year tomorrow night! And a definite reunion of the ASSes. Hahahahahha....

And, am meeting my super crazy girlfriends for a lunch date on Sunday. Sigh. I hate how it is right now - people too busy with life. That includes yours truly. But I am sure really excited for this date =)

Movies? I don't know if this is a movie weekend or not. Wafaaaaa, where are you???????

And Miss Era, you owe me big time! And I need your measurements laaaa sayangku. Hahahah..

The currency exchange looks..... Promising. I've updated my Maybank Visa =) But no money inside. LoL. Mummy, please??? Heheheheh..

Anyway, happy weekend dearest. Love you!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Love is Never Ugly

Have you heard the story about how love can change a person, how things seem to suddenly be alright and everything is just perfect when you're together? Have you heard the story how love makes even the ugliest thing beautiful, the most cruel thing kind? And how love makes this world go round?

I would say, if you're a fan of Beauty and the Beast, you would love this movie. It has the touch of its own, and is original.

I went to watch this movie on Sunday, excited as always. *Okay, I'm not THAT outdated in movies* And I went out of the cinema with a smile.

This story reminds me that it is not what you see on the outside that matters, it is what is in the inside. You can look just plain and boring, but believe me there is always that light that shines in you. And people who knows you will be able to see that.

And you might appear as someone so attractive and everyone may like you, but deep inside, your heart is darker than night. One day, that darkness will overwhelm you and you will have nothing left.

And no, love is never ugly. It is the most beautiful thing on earth, the most calm and joyful feeling.

Anyway, its a nice movie. You should watch it, really =)

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Friday Movie Mania

I would declare myself as being sooooo outdated in terms of movies. You see, there's a tons of movies out in the cinema, and I have hardly watched any of them yet. I don't know it is due to my laziness *yeah, that happens*, lack of companion or just nerdiness *not happening*. Haha. I asked a few friends out for a movie during the weekdays but I happen to be the one canceling it. Nerd enough? You judge! LoL.

Anyway, I can't stop myself from going to the cinema anymore, not when I saw Wafaa's tweet. She was in KL, and I had a meeting in the evening, so we settled on a night show, or should I saw THREE shows. Hahahah.

Movie 1: Sanctum

There was a huge traffic jam on the way to Pavilion, luckily we got there just in time to settle down and watch a few commercials =P The reason why I wanted to watch this movie so much because it is from the creators of Titanic and Avatar, two movies which has been huge success on the big screen. Both movies had their own moral values and superb story line, so I had really really REALLY high expectations for this movie.

I'm honestly NOT disappointed at all. It was a great movie!!! I love the setting, I love the story line, the moral value, the thrill in the movie, EVERYTHING about it.

Sanctum is about cave divers, and how they need to find the way out of the cave when a storm came and the exit of the cave was blocked by a rock. Thrilling, definitely!

One quote I love the most - Assumption is the mother of all f**. Haha. I can't deny that. Stop assuming. Lol.

Movie 2: The Mechanic

I would say that I had no expectations for this movie except for the fact of Ben Foster in it. LoL. It was an okay movie, good to watch with not much dialogues. Hahahah...

The reason why we watched this movies is because I wanted to watch the NEXT movie so much, but had nothing to do in between. LoL. I promised Era that I'd watch Black Swan with her, so I chose this movie instead. Heeee...

The Mechanic is about.. erm.. killing? Yea, kinda. It is about revenge, and how it kills to live for only revenge. In the end it shows that revenge will only consume you back and take you down. Oh, I love the action in this movie. Hahha...

Movie 3: Unknown

I wanted to watch this movie so much after watching the trailer. It is about a man, waking up after an accident only to find out that his life has been replaced by another man! And this man knows EVERYTHING about him, his personal life, his studies, his career.

He needs to fight to get back his life, his wife, and the people who trusts him.

I would say that this movie has a twist on its own, and is simply just unexpected!!! I wouldn't reveal much as this is still a new movie and you would want to watch it. Haha.

Anyway, in between movies, we had hot chocolate and some cam whoring as usual. LoL. Thanks for the awesome night Wafaa. Next girl date?? Heeeee
Two big-eyed hamsters =P

And to Miss Era Zuhaira, you owe me 100000000000000000 dates!!! Hahahah =P

Thursday, March 3, 2011


Change is good, is it?

Lately I'm feeling different, I don't know if I should blame it on the hormones, or it is just me. So I turned to a friend who I trust, and she adviced me something really meaningful, something I've known all along, yet I never really understood.

Turn to God, He will never leave you for anything or anyone else.

Thanks dear, I hope this can last.

And yes, I need your support. I kinda like the first trial yesterday, and am looking forward for it. I just hope that I would remain this way.

I'm trying out something I've never tried before, and maybe this is it, the one thing I'm looking for to my journey of being a person.

Another friend's advice - less is better than more. I think I get it now. Though it is not in my nature to not care of those who I used to care about before, and it feels weird too, but I'll try. But then again, maybe I should just be me.

Be sincere, towards everyone, and you'll find your zen =)

One thing I learnt yesterday, you have to know before you love. And sometimes, you think you know, but actually you don't as your eyes and heart is shut by the negativity. Don't think you know anything, or anyone before you discover the real truth. And for that, search for it.

And to you, thanks for being by my side, as always.

Ps: Gosh I miss my dolls! =(